Truths

Author: Silvernyte Title: Truths

    Zelgadis looked out the window at the moon shining high in

    the sky and sighed. It was on nights like these he could set

    aside the things he told himself, the things he forced himself

    to believe, and realize at least some truths that eluded him

    in the day. Things seemed so still, - so calm - that he could

    almost believe there was a place for him, somewhere, even as he

    is now. He could almost consider speaking his heart, but he knew

    that with the dawning of the sun it would sear away whatever

    thoughts made him think he could do so. He sighed again and stepped

    out of the room to walk to the balcony to enjoy the night air only

    to find Lina already there.

    He wandered to the bench and sat beside Lina silently and she just

    said "Beautiful," with a sigh.

    He just nodded and answered, "Yes, it is a beautiful night," not

    understanding she was referring to him and how he looked with

    the moonlight shining on him.

    "Zel," she said quietly. "Do you ever wonder if what you thought

    you wanted most was... I don't know, worthless, useless,

    unnecessary?" She stared straight at the moon in deep thought.

    "On nights like these, yeah." He answered honestly. "Sometimes I

    even wonder why I search for my cure with such obsession."

    Suddenly she looked right at him and they locked eyes. After a

    minute she spoke softly, "Maybe that's because you don't need one."

    Zel looked away and blushed, how could she say that? He was a

    freak, wasn't he? But somehow she seemed to forget what he was.

    He smiled as he thought about how he had been before he met her.

    She brought him friendship, laughter, fun, someone to remind him

    there was more to life than moping around. Then he spoke, "Maybe

    you're right."

    He knew he couldn't imagine who he would have been without her,

    or could he? Oh, he'd have truly become a monster, caring only for

    his cure. And he realized that meant that he'd be every bit the

    monster he feared people saw him as, and even if he did turn his

    body human again his soul would have became a monster's.

    Zel looked at Lina and saw her smile, and without thinking smiled

    back. He knew before, even when he was human, he'd never have smiled

    so openly. He thought to himself, 'On a night like tonight you could

     blame it on the moon.'

    "Sometimes I wonder what I'm looking for," Lina said suddenly. "Or

    why I'm even looking at all."

    "Maybe you've already found it," Zel said in response, "And you

    just haven't realized it yet." Then they stared at each other.

    Even as he saw her smile at that he saw the pain and doubt written

    on her face. He then knew, consciously, what a part of him had known

     since he first saw her. He knew of the pain inside her that drove

    her desperately to search for something she couldn't put a name to.

    His heart reached out to her and he placed a hand on her shoulder.

    "And if you haven't, I hope you find it soon." Then he leaned

    forward and kissed her, he was somewhat surprised when she started

    to kiss back.

    Almost hungrily the kiss deepened and they embraced, then suddenly

    she broke the kiss and moved her head to kiss his ear a few times

    before speaking, "I think I found it." Then she kissed his ear a

    few more times, "And did anyone ever tell you that you have the

    cutest ears?"

    He grinned and laughed softly, "No, no one's ever told me that

    until now." He could barely believe it, she cared for him - loved

    him even! He felt so happy he was sure he should have burst.

    'Gods,' he wondered, 'how could I have ever lived before this?'

    They way he felt so suddenly... alive, made him wonder if what

    he had been doing before wasn't just simply existing. But what

    was the point on wondering about the past when there was so much

    to do. Now that there was so much to live for now that he had

    found a place for himself, just as he is. He smiled contentedly.

    "Zel," she whispered into his ear. "I love you."

    Zelgadis blinked and smiled. Yes, this was love. Like nothing he

    could have imagined before, love looking straight to the soul

    and binding two together into something so much more spectacular

    and wonderful than anything else. Something he felt, as he knew

    she felt that he could not again live without. He embraced her,

    her head nuzzling into his chest as his fingers stroked her soft

    hair. "I love you too Lina, beloved."

    As Lina and Zelgadis sat in the moonlight Lina snuggled even closer to

    Zel causing him to sit perfectly still, unsure of what to do next. Lina

    noticed his stillness and slowly looked up into his incredibly blue

    eyes. "Zel?" she asked softly.

    His eyes shut and he took a deep breath. "Lina," he answered, his

    voice trying to take the cool impassive tone he usually used only to

    have doubt, fear, and something else spill into it. "The way things

    look like they might be heading, things could get pretty... intimate.

    And with me as I am, I'm not sure..." he tried to say before Lina

    silenced him with a kiss.

    Both Lina and Zelgadis were filled with the intense joy of knowing the

    one they loved did love them back. Even as Lina broke the kiss and just

    sat there staring into Zel's eyes, and him staring back, they felt

    their hearts start to race and a hidden, burning need began to stir

    within them.

    A chill breeze suddenly blew past the two and Lina shivered slightly.

    "Maybe we should go in, if its getting too cold for you. Get out of

    this wind?" Zel suggested, wrapping his cape around Lina as he held her

    closer.

    Lina smiled and nodded, slowly putting one arm around him as he rose

    helping her up as well. "Can we go to your room? We could talk or

    something," Lina asked. Their eyes met and after a moment Zelgadis

    smiled and nodded. As they reached his room Zel walked ahead to open

    the door. letting Lina in first. Lina walked in making her way to the

    bed and sat carefully at the end of it. A moment later Zel sat beside

    her.

    Zel began to move one arm around her waist so that he could hold her

    close only to have her wrap her arms around his neck before she kissed

    him. Zel's eyes opened wide for a moment as he felt her tongue part his

    lips and enter his mouth, but then he closed them and bringing his

    other arm around her waist kissed back.

    After a moment his lips left hers as they left a trail of kisses

    towards her ear. He kissed it softly, running his tongue along it

    before he began trailing kisses down her neck, savoring the taste of

    her skin. "Zel," Lina said breathlessly. "Will you..."

    "Lina," he said stopping the kiss to look into her eyes. "I could hurt

    you."

    "Please Zel. I... I love you. And I want to... to be with you," her

    eyes gazed pleadingly into his and he sighed before pulling her close

    again.

    "If that is what you want," he whispered almost soundlessly into her

    ear as he moved her back to his lap. His lips met hers again and they

    kissed both deeply and hungrily as he removed both their capes and

    began to caress her small breasts.

    Lina made a soft moan of pleasure as her hands began trying to tug his

    shirt off. Carefully he removed her from his lap and stood up, pulling

    off his shirt. Lina's eyes grew wide as she saw him shirtless with the

    light of the full moon framing him/ He turned away unsure of why

    exactly she was staring at him, worrying she changed her mind. He shut

    his eyes wondering what to do.

    "Zel," she said softly, breaking his trance. As he turned to look at

    his love he saw she had taken her shirt off, leaving herself bare from

    the waist up like he now was. "You look... wonderful." she assured him

    as he sat down beside  He  He kissed her as her hands began wandering

    over his bare back and chest, her fingers softly circling the pebbles

    embedded in his blue skin.

    Now Zel moaned, then began a trail of kisses down her neck as his hands

    grabbed her breasts, his thumbs giving her nipples the same treatment

    she was giving the pebbles in his skin. Suddenly they shifted their

    positions so that they laid on the bed, Zel on top of Lina, careful not

    to let her feel his fill weight.

    Slowly he began trailing kisses down her, stopping at her breast to

    take one of her nipples in his mouth letting his tongue caress it as

    one hand stayed on the other breast. The other moved down her stomach,

    caressing her there before he started to remove her pants. Lina moaned

    in pleasure as her fingers pushed into his wiry hair as he finished

    stripping off her pants. His hands moved towards her bare thighs to

    caress them and he felt himself grow bolder. His hands went between her

    legs causing Lina to moan his name in pleasure.

    He began trailing kisses up her body and towards her mouth, then they

    kissed passionately for an eternal moment before Lina's hands moved to

    his pants pulling them loose. He helped her slide them all the way off

    and then Lina broke the kiss. Her hands trailed down his body, feeling

    every inch of him until her hands came to his hardness. He moaned as

    she took it in her hand, first squeezing it lightly, then stroking it.

    After a moment she pulled her hands away and looked into Zel's eyes,

    her hands now caressing his strong back. "I love you," she whispered,

    her eyes letting him know she was ready.

    "I love you too," he whispered back, then entered her. A wave of

    sensations both painful and pleasurable hit them and they gasped.

    Slowly they began their motions, reveling in the feeling of being so

    intimately connected with each other. Carefully Zel moved so Lina was

    on top as their motions sped up. They began to moan each others names

    as they neared their climax.

    Suddenly their eyes shut tight as a wave of intense pleasure hit them

    like a tidal wave and they thrust together almost violently. Lina

    gasped as he felt him spill into her. He wrapped his arms around her

    and her eyes rolled back as they shared their moment of total pleasure.

    Suddenly it was over, and Lina lay exhausted on top of an equally spent

    Zelgadis. Carefully they separated and Lina shifted her position so

    that she laid beside Zel, her arm over his chest and her head on his

    shoulder. "Lina..." Zel began in a querying tone.

    Lina nuzzled his neck then looked at him, a lazy satisfied, love-filled

    grin on her face. "Zel," she whispered. "That was... that was even

    better than I dreamed." Zel looked at her questioningly, not sure what

    to say in response to that. Lina kissed him and replied, "When you

    freed me that night, you captured my heart." Zel smiled and held her

    tighter. Soon they fell asleep smiling contentedly.

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